What do you want to do for the rest of your life?

Why do we make life more complicated than it is? Why do things need to make sense? Why do we "need" to be in control?

I am learning to be excited about letting go, about not having a plan.

As children we live in the moment, everything is about right now and we are fully there. Delayed gratification doesn't exist. As time progresses we are taught/forced to look into the future to decide at a young age what we will do for the rest of our lives. How to think ahead and practice delayed gratification.

The problem is that the more I learn about God and the idea of being a Christ follower the more I find myself having to re-learn how to live in the moment how to be here and then here and then here.

Planning and delayed gratification aren't bad, I don't think :), but it seems that so much of the life of a disciple is about being where you are.

We can't know what "we want to do for the rest of our lives" at 15, 16, 18, or 40. It's not our place to know that. Our purpose is to submit to the idea that we don't know what God has for us but we will be there when we do know which is usually moments before.